- Who am I kidding? dignify.ca
- Don't shop at all; I'm sure that you have lots of great stuff already ;)
(one of my faves, Alberta homeboy Tim Okamura)
This is a question I was posed by someone I love, someone who knows me and what I do. But this was a rant borne, I think, of the powerlessness and overwhelm of learning more about the world; of being faced with the cruelty & despair of suffering; of coming to see — and really feel — the frustration that some people with money, power, & influence, continually wield it unjustly with no end or recourse in sight.
Do I know what a big problem human trafficking is?
Yes, it is a big problem. Yes, I am aware of it.
I love summer, and I think at least partly it’s because as a rebel (who resists expectations) I am nostalgic for the glory days of few obligations or responsibilities. I wrote about this last week… it’s a theme!
And what is more leisurely than strolling the stacks at the library, then lazily reading on the hammock, couch, in a treehouse, on a blanket spread in the grass or on the sand. I seemed to have the luxury of endless hours of reading in my youth, though now that pleasure is mostly saved for holidays and Sunday afternoons.
We have 3 school-aged kids who are on summer holidays. I love summertime, and I’m feeling the tension of wanting to soak up every minute and maximize these fleeting times with my kids, with the day-to-day, continued needs of life.
I want to play, adventure, create memories;
I want to be with my kids to craft, explore, linger over board games, walk to get a cold treat.
I also have responsibilities to work, to function, to plan, to keep the life-wheels in motion.
Is this the lie, the false pressure of modern motherhood? That nagging insecurity — when I’m doing this, maybe I should be doing that; and visa versa?